Ok. So I’m fat. I’ve earned the right to be fat cuz I’m old. So I’m old and fat. I do have a life of sorts. I have good friends and I’m on Facebook. Just because you may be old and fat doesn’t mean you can’t have a life. Men even still want to date me and a few have considered me for marriage but I’m not looking for a serious relationship. Seriously – not long ago if a guy even mentioned marriage I put my running shoes on and I’m not a runner. I’m too old to run but I make an exception for those times when marriage has been mentioned. I’m old but my legs are still in good shape, however I don’t think people over 60 should ever run unless they’re forced to run like when someone pulls out a knife and the situation doesn’t call for knives. Running is not good on the knees when you’re over 60. I don’t even have one varicose vein in my legs and I think not running may have something to do with that – but maybe not.
If I did have varicose veins I wouldn’t go to a doctor for them I would just use Varigone cream or capsules which can be found here. Capsules: http://rainsholistichealth.net/?sn=999 and cream: http://rainsholistichealth.net/?sn=4947
Being a doctor of natural health has given me many options to drugs which just cover symptoms so I try to stay away from drugs with all the side-effects they have. I’ve been in natural health field for over 40 years and have written a book on some of the healing ways and treatments I’ve worked with over the years. If you want to read it go to Balboa Press and find Warrior Spirit Path of Medicine by Merida Venditti. Also may be downloaded on a kindle from Amazon.com if you wish. And it’s cheaper than buying a hard cover or paperback but it’s full of good information if you want to know the ins and outs of detoxing and things that go with that like the healing crisis. The book has lots of other information in it that shouldn’t make it at all boring.
If you want to read my blog there will always be bits and pieces of the natural healing ways and some fun along the way. Healing doesn’t have to be boring or tedious as it fits in with life in all it’s ups and downs. There’s so much to learn and hopefully learning can be both empowering and fun. So you’re welcome to come along for the ride if you don’t mind me being Fat and Old. Hey – at least I don’t hurt!
Pardon me while I ramble. I am older and sometimes my thoughts take me to ramblings. Bear with me.
One benefit of aging is that one has more to look back on which opens your perspective of the age old question, “what was it all about?”
But in the context of time and wisdom and aging and if you tend to believe in reincarnation and the question – do we continue to live even after we die? – are we, indeed, God experiencing Itself? In the vastness of space we must acknowledge by now that we are not alone and we are souls without end, living lifetime after lifetime in a sea of experiences that help us to understand that we are never alone.
So what is it we are learning in all of these lifetimes? What exactly is the Big Picture of life?
For me, life is never-ending. It is time spent experiencing everything Human. We experience in every human aspect – physical, emotional, spiritual and mental. We experience life in many dimensions and worlds although most of us ignore that fact. We often don’t acknowledge emotional pain but hide it behind drugs and alcohol. I think that’s why I don’t try to soothe my emotions with drugs or alcohol. I do chocolate instead. Drugs and alcohol deaden the emotions and what is life without emotion? When we emote – which is different than when we feel – emotion is a wave, a depth so intense that we know without a doubt that we are truly alive.
Take for instance Grief. Nothing robs the life of a body as thoroughly as Grief. The intensity of Grief makes one feel as though there is nothing left to give. It is life-draining. It is devastating and oh so difficult to come back from. It is all encompassing and as close to suffocating as one can feel without actually stopping breathing. It is difficult to breathe through Grief. Grief is heavy and weighs the body down. It is difficult to walk through Grief. Grief is pure emotion. We don’t FEEL Grief. We EMOTE through it. You can hide feelings. You can’t hide emotions.
The Big Picture of life is pure experience. It is time and space offering what we need to move beyond and into a broader reflection of ourselves. That reflection is either in or on a higher vibration that brings us to a new awareness of experience and experiencing ourselves through our own awareness of ourselves. There is no right or wrong to life in the Bigger Picture because there is no judgement. Our God is too big. Our lives are pure reflections of ourselves as seen through the eyes of what we call GOD. The actuality of GOD is purely speculation as GOD is mysterious and without end. So how do we know or even think we KNOW what GOD is?
Enlightenment is the breakdown of our preconceived notions about what we always thought we knew. Enlightenment strips away all we thought we knew and introduces us to a Greater Reality. Events in our lives lead us to many paths in the Big Picture. Some are born enlightened. Others have to study most of their lives before they become enlightened. But in the Big Picture we all will attain enlightenment.
It is in our DNA to become so.
However we get there is all experience and part of the Big Picture and the older you get the more this is understood. That’s the beauty of aging.
Out with friends one evening, one of the men asked me how old I was. I don’t like that question and avoid it at all cost. He wasn’t playing and asked me again. And again. Finally I told him and his reaction was comical.
He sat there with his mouth open and just looked dumbfounded. I didn’t expect that but I waited until he recovered himself enough to comment, “I’m speechless. I’m honestly speechless! It sure says a lot for what you do.”
I believe genes play a lot in aging but I also do everything possible to make sure I age well. I take very good minerals because if you hurt – you need minerals. The more you hurt, as a matter of fact, the more you need trace minerals. Minerals are the one supplement you never see advertised on TV and I’d bet you can’t find them in a pharmacy. You may find them in a health food store but I don’t believe I’ve yet found them in a pharmacy. To read about minerals and order some very good ones you can go here: http://www.rainsholistichealth.net/?sn=310 to read about what trace minerals do for your body. The article says it better and it’s all written out for you so follow the link to begin to understand why you need traces of minerals. Stress eats up minerals.
If you have issues with balance – you walk into walls and fall over your own feet then check this product out: http://www.rainsholistichealth.net/?sn=1818: Trace minerals in a formula that helps balance the energy pathways of your body known as “meridians”.
Every once in a while I don’t take any supplements just to give my body a break from them. One morning I woke up with an achy all over feeling. I had to think about the last time I’d taken any trace minerals and I realized it had been over 2 months. The first thing I did was take a healthy dose of the liquid mineral and within 20 minutes all of my aches in my muscles disappeared. It was that quick.
I also take a supplement that has seven patents on it. It is also a liquid and the patented matrix contains hyaluronic acid, collagen and chondroitin. This product not only helps my skin to look years younger but it has totally strengthened my whole right side of my body which has always been my weak side. I’m hooked on this patented product. Find it here and read about it and watch any of the videos: http://www.modere.com/j267338 – type Liquid Biocell into the search box or just scroll down the page and find it. The delivery of this matrix into your system through the mucosa of the mouth instead of having to reach the intestines is what is patented. It absorbs instantly.
Aging doesn’t have to hurt. You’re not deficient in drugs – you’re deficient in nutrients. I don’t take a lot of pills like most people do. I use a liquid mineral and the Liquid Biocell. Try both and see how you feel.
I’ve been in your box and I want out. You keep me there with your expectations and your perceptions of me. It’s not fair and I want out. No matter what you think of me, I am so much more. You think you know me so well. You don’t and you never will. You don’t know my dreams and aspirations. I don’t tell you everything because you couldn’t handle what’s inside of me. You wouldn’t be able to perceive a box as big as my dreams and my aspirations. You would be drawn out of your own box – you know – the one you keep yourself in. It’s comfortable there and so you stay because it’s uncomfortable to venture outside of that box. It’s uncomfortable and scary and maybe a little dangerous. Yet you’re missing out on so much by keeping yourself in your little box.
I know you think I’m safe to be around but you have no idea of the places I’ve ventured and the people I’ve met by venturing outside of your box. That box you keep me locked in. I don’t really live there – I just let you think I do. I like you and don’t want to lose your place in my life and so I let you stay. Don’t worry. I won’t scare you out of your own box. I would never want you to stay in a box so I encourage you to be who you want to be and explore all of what life has to offer.
This life is so BIG! It’s so much more than most people can imagine if they would let their imaginations run wild.
I’m older now. I’ve been in many people’s boxes and had to get out. I won’t be in anyone’s box ever again. Let them think as they may. This is MY life.
I had a dream that a seal grew out of my chest. It looked like a flower. Something like a flower. Maybe not quite a flower. More like a seal of some sort. It was very real. But what does it mean?
I’m not sure. Do I really care? Does it make me different in some way? When I’m supposed to have the answer then it will come and I will know what it means. For now I’m content and don’t really have to know. That’s the Beauty of Aging. Life doesn’t have to mean anything. That I’m alive means more than having to know why I’m alive.
For now I’m not in anyone’s box – not even in my own. I have fun with my work and my family. My life is full of joy and laughter. Climb out of your box and see what I mean. Find your own joy.